My Writings. My Thoughts.
Stress…and a little whining…
// April 10th, 2009 // No Comments » // Random News
I know that everyone warned me being a parent was stressful…however, I think Dave and I are in the deep end of the stress pool with Gavin. Don’t get me wrong I love my son, he is absolutely the most loving, adorable yet frustrating child!!!!
I know, all parents right now are chuckling and thinking, well everyone can say that about their kids. And that is true, however, having a child with autism can make things a little more difficult…not so much because of your child, but because of the adults you come in contact with.
Most people are very supportive, however there are a few who take the "autism is made up so people don’t have to take responsibility of their kids" route, and pretty much treat you like you’re a terrible parent because your kid is 5 and is still wearing diapers. This, of course, is very frustrating for me.
I also find myself getting down because right now most parents are signing their kids up for sports and activities for the summer, camp, vacations…they have their choice of childcare facilities to send their child to, but we don’t. Frankly, we cannot afford to send Gavin to a summer camp for children with special needs, and there aren’t many sports related activities (that we can afford right now) to send him to. Finding a daycare is difficult since most places that will just accept him flat out just need the money and we don’t want to put him in a daycare that is not right for him just because they say yes. (we already made that mistake and it did not turn out well). We don’t get to interview daycares, they have to interview Gavin.
Gavin’s accomplishments are much different than most children’s. I get excited when Gavin asks for what he wants instead of whining or repeating phrases until we understand him. When we finally get him to use the toilet I think I might faint with happiness! I look at other parents who brag about their children’s accomplishments, you know the conversations: "Billy just said his first word" "Samantha is going to be in honors orchestra" "Tom made his first touchdown today" and when the conversation turns to me I always feel weird because most parents look at me, and then look away because they feel bad. I know I may be being hyper sensitive about this, but I don’t want people to feel like they can’t talk about those things around me, and I love to hear about their children, but on the same token, while I think Gavin’s accomplishments are amazing…most parents have a hard time being sincere in the praise for him.
I guess what I am getting to is that it hurts to think that most adults see Gavin and think "poor thing" instead thinking "amazing" the way I do.
I just want what every parent wants…I want my child to succeed, I want him to have friends, I want him to soar…I don’t want people to pity him. Of course, all I can really do is love him and hope people see the person he is instead of the "autistic kid".
My Birthday….We went to Sea World!!
// April 4th, 2009 // No Comments » // Random News
Ok, so I turned 35 on April 3. I don’t really feel 35, but I am! To celebrate, Dave and I went to Sea World, San Antonio. It was so much fun! It was nice to be out with just the two of us and enjoy the exhibits and just be together. Thank you so much Dave for being such an AWESOME husband!!!! I love you!
Here is a slideshow of our day!
Models For the Month of March!
// March 23rd, 2009 // No Comments » // Random News
A little shameless self-promotion…
Cupcakes, Cupcakes, Cupcakes…
// February 10th, 2009 // No Comments » // Clan Debus News, Random News
Who am I and why do I have a blog?
Well, I guess I’m like most people. I have opinions on just about everything, but if I don’t voice them, they turn into ever growing balls of rage that swelter and fester inside me. I find getting things out through writing is a little more grown up than throwing temper tantrums and lashing out at everyone around me.
What will you read about in my blog?
You’ll read about everything I love and hate in this world. You will absolutely see a lot of photos of my family. You’ll probably read a lot about my son and his progress in school and therapy. You’ll also get to read some tips and tricks as well as DIY projects for photography. I’ll also be sharing what’s new in my yarn bin as well as all my Works In Progress. I’ll throw in a smattering of whining (I’m female and I claim it as my right), news about my photography business (hopefully it will keep the upward trend as a business), and more photos of my family!
I will also be featuring a weekly Bible study based on my daily quiet times.
Most of all, I am looking forward to being able to express myself on any subject I want, any time I want, and for any reason I want!
Why are you the "Cupcake Farmer"?
Cupcake Farm is the name of my Etsy store (which currently has nothing in it, but will soon). I love cupcakes, and had a fun website called cupcakefarm.com at one point. I just think there is nothing cuter than a cupcake…we call our daughters and significant others by the name and their just as sweet as can be! I wish they grew on trees so I could farm them.
I know it sounds lame, but that’s the way it is.
